full lotus drum session

The other night I had alot of fun progressing my full lotus stretch with a drum pad resting between my feet as me and my friends drummed away for however long it was that we sat there. I took a bunch of photos and even took a video but I am having trouble uploading them from my phone and it is disheartening that I can't fully share this fun experience with you guys D:

Life style

KFB has taken a back seat to the rest of my life as of late as ashamed as I am to say it. I am keeping everything I've learned so far very close to my heart. I intend to take a step back and try to get the rest of my life on track which is going to take a few more months but I will not fail the meaning of KFB. I seek to strengthen my relationship with my body in the coming years of my life but right now I just don't have the time to dedicate to working out and reading up on my friends and to post my story.

I want to continue on in the program in a way of sorts but right now I just can't give it my all. This is not a guaranteed goodbye or anything but I am still making it known that I've been missing and I probably will continue to come in and out of veil to say hello from time to time.

looking back

This is me at prom, the date says may 15th last year. So lets see how I've come along in 18 months :)

This picture was take on day 45. For what its worth I thought I would throw these up to show some form of progress. You can see it in my neck and my cheeks especially :)

This was also taken on day 45, sadly I don't have a more revealing shot from my tubbier days. Mind you I'm 50 pounds lighter in these 2 pictures than in my picture from prom

day 50

here we are 50 days down the road. A lot has changed. Not only in this program, but in my life as well as my team mates I'm sure. I've come to a very happy middle ground in my life. I'm almost done with my EMT course. Litterally about 5 weeks left and its all over. Then I get to play the waiting game while looking for a job and once I have a job my life really gets to take off.

I now realize that as much as I want to be older now, to be wiser, stronger, faster, or to simply have a family and a secure job... I can wait for all that. I now see that I should stop and relax. Get to see the world thats passing me by before its too late to look back and see it before it changes in a flash. Times are always changing, people, economics, social groups, politics... all of it is always changing and if we don't take the time to actually watch it all unfold, then we're going to miss all the good parts!

As I go through my everyday life I find myself being more and more mindful. I notice all kinds of things now that I feel like I haven't been able to see for a long time. Its as if I'm getting a new pair of glasses to see the world through. My vision is clear once again and for that I am thankful.

back in game mode

I don't find myself wanting to post every 2 seconds anymore... I truly wish that I could just translate my random thoughts through out the day, stretching, working out, eating food, etc; straight to the blog, but alas it does not work that way. The other day I truly learned to breath with my stretches. I found myself calming and enter deeper than while I was really on my A game. Maybe its because I gave my body a little break to relax. It's hard to say but I like it :)